Why is it so difficult to acknowledge all our isues?  Why can we not have a "defrag" button and start all over, why so painfull, why why why  this is where I am today.  All the why's - Why did I allow myself to sunk so low into all my issues and now it feels like no end in sight?  I am so emotionaly tired of myself, yet proud that I eventualy took the step to deal with it: just wonder where is the end of this all? Gosh I feel  totaly overwhelming today, and I dont want to touch my journal today. What is wrong with me?